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feel my life just keeps on changing
when everything just seems the same
i look outside my window crying
wishing you would come back to me
and sometimes i make believe
that you are standing here, next to me
sometimes i begin to cry,
when i lossed my sense of holding back
i try to seise the moment
i try to imagine a perfect world
as i sit and look in the mirror crying
i see someone i dont really know
just a soul i try to hide
and as i stare at this being
i realize my life has been through beatings
thinking about you makes me cry
sometimes i feel any moment i could
just die.
hit the floor
and i dont know how i am here
all alone
just know
i just know
all i know
is that your not here with me
your not here to help me
and sometimes i feel that you are
dying.
-Chelsea Richardson
"Dying"
Maybe you should have listened
to what i said
now you feel stupid
and your screwed up inside your head
your aparent reasons
arnt getting you anywhere
you never stopped to think
of the damage in dispair
you left me out in the cold
in the freezing rain
you never gave me a reason
for you to stay
in my heart forever
im giveing you a piece of my heart
dont ever brake it
because you are now apart of me
still from this day you have my heart
but you never stole it from me
and im still stuck in
this lovely only 1 half of a heart
your days fly by without me
you are my flashlight in my dark soul
come with me on my wings
my wings through the dark
lightning flashes as our hearts are now on fire
the light is burning out
your my flashlight
my only way out
im loseing you
no the light is starting to flow away
theres no mroe glow in my heart
now
cuz you have the other half
which is now broken.
-Chelsea Richardson
"Heart Soul"
My life
So violent
My soul
Isn't fighting it
And as i breathe, i feel so dead
i feel death inside of me
feel the death of crumbling
my veins
arnt worth draining
cuz my life
isn't worthy enough to spare
my past isn't strong enough
to turn black into grey
i try
so hard to think
my dad
isn't gonna keep
this up
and whenever i think about
i cant hold it in anymore
im so sick of holding it in
how many more years can i pretend
that nothing ever goes the way it was supposed to be
all those years locked inside of me so deep
sometimes they strike at me way too hard
and i begin to weep
i never really wanted anyone to see
the violent life that i keep
locked inside of me so deep
sometimes u see it come out
but usually locked within
whenever one soul laughs at me
i see so many
people makeing fun of me
they always get to me
then i just cant breathe
suddenly i feel so weak
and fall to the floor
5 years looking back,
cant keep my life on track
cuz my life has been crumbling
i cant hear myself breatheing
please just let me rest in peace
as i fall to the floor
horrible isn't it
not being able to sleep at night
feeling as if i were to say goodbye
to my life
as i pass by
and then i fall to the floor
please listen to me
when i adore
as i fall to the floor.
written by Chelsea Richardson
all you do is laugh at me
i know all that is my past
but ive tried to change it
but u dont listen
when i say i mean it
you tell me im stupid
i try not imagine
all these stupid things going on
i lost it all
lost everything
now i have nothing
i lost everyone
now im almost alone
my life even though
it has just begun
no one believes me
no, no one
and my beliefs
make me strong
but until i forget you
my soul will remain
forever lost
you all laugh at me
and cause me pain
as i fall to the ground
hit the floor
you all just sit and ignore
than u spot me
and u kick at me some more
just let me finish it off
let me end this all
with just one shot
-Chelsea Richardson
"Fear"
Through the heart
i give you my blood
through the veins
i spill my love
mained
burn the lies
of our dying days
ive reached the highest
mountain in my life
if i could climb down
things would be so much better
the rope just broke
i cant reach the bottom
your the one
the only one
who can find my way
find the knife
cut off my pride
cuz without you
my life is a barracade
show me your true side
show me the way
not to hide
show me all your ways
tear the heart
brake the bones
cuz without you
im drowning
through my heart
i'll show you all my ways
and help you home
help you home
through the heart
- Written by Chelsea Richardson
"Through the Heart" lyrics
Sweet
Dude
Sweet
Dude
Dude
Sweet
Sweet
Dudely Sweet
Sweetly Dude
Help me
I need someone
Help me
to help me fly
Help me
I need you
Help me
Show me the truth
Help me
and i think that
Help Me
That I'm Drowning
Help Me
And I Need Your arms
help me
to resuce me
Help me
Help Me
help me
Help me
become who i am
help me
fly again
help me
feel the power of love
help me
i need someone
help me
to show me how
help me
to avoid all these people harsh words
help me
help me become
help me
who i really am
help me
and on my wings i'll fly again
so
help me
i need only you
help me
to help me
help me
push off all these things that has happened in my life
help me
i need someone
help me
to tell me im strong
help me
to tell me im better than all of them
help me
i need someone
to show me something
help me
to show me how to live a good life
HELP ME
HELP ME
HELP ME
HELP ME
HELP ME
HELP ME
HELP HELP HELP
ME
-written by Chelsea Richardson
"Help Me" lyrics
Of all these things that i have done
i cannot believe im not dead
by all the times i wrecked and cried
in a ditch somewhere
as i cried, i visualized
what it would feel
to just be a kid
because no one wanted a kid like me
no one wanted to be around someone like me
and as i balled, kicked and screamed
no one came and helped me
all the cars, that drove by
they just look at.. drive away
i pretend that my life has been
better than it is
but it's more than i can bear
if i sit and think
of the days i shared
but as i sit in this ditch
i feel my skin start to burn
and it's more than i can take
but i can't think of what you've done to me
all you helpless little angels
just fly away
fly away
on your wings
as i sit here
out in the cold
all alone
as i sit and wait
for someone to actually care
and to come rescue me
i think i found that person to help me
to help me
to help me
out of this ditch
that i dug
for myself
to die
in
i feel im being
pulled in
to
the earth's
core
this earth's
spore
please
help me
im starting to feel my life
fade
fade
fade
away
away
away
you cant
you cant
help me
help me
I CAN'T GET OUT OF THIS DITCH I HAVE MADE
BUT YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO I CAN SAVE
ONLY IF YOU COULD SAVE ME FROM MYSELF
- Chelsea Richardson
"This Ditch I Have Dug"
Thost Tears of Those Years
She sits at the lunch table, all alone.
No one really knows her.
And how much is behind her group attire.
No one speaks or lurks near her.
For fear is what she's preached for many years.
The way she walks, the trash she talks,
brings her friends to final conclusion.
For she fears anyone who's near her.
But her fragile spirit is about to fly away.
Fly Away,
When she walks and she talks like she's confused.
Then he of her dreams, dosn't wanna catch her fall.
What kind of life is that?
And she dosn't exist,
she dosn't exist,
she dosn't exist in their minds.
And all she needs is a pure loved heart.
But when he came in her life, she climbed high on a tower.
As the fall devours her.
And thten she prays to Christ above.
And then she screamed:
"Pull ome back, pull me out,
and just help me live this life.
When nobody understands me.
I'm falling.
Since no one can catch me.
So now I fall."
And those tears shed from all of those years,
now she lives in a loving place.
Now they all know how they were.
And how they gave her this life.
- Chelsea (Clenx) Schoch Richardson
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every once in a while, i will add another one of my poems/ songs. i just dont want some certain ppl to read them.
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